Overwhelmed

Today I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed.  I've so much work to complete for school, house duties at home, and my daughter's 3 year old birthday to plan. Her birthday is March 14 and it amazes me that I have a three year old.  She's going to start school in September at Our Lady Blessed of the Blessed Sacrement and guess who's excited!! ME!! She will finally be in a school setting, something I really think she needs. I have assignments for my English class to complete and lots of studying to do for my History 251 class.  My house isnt completely clean like I want it to be; I do believe that's apart of the reason im stressed. Life is so amazing, despite its ups and down. I'm pushing through everything I'm going through. I have goals that I plan on reaching and no amount of stress will stop me.

What a Week

This has been a very eventful week for me. Valentine's Day was a drag. I didnt have much of a Valentine's day. I worked at my church, we served the minister's and their wives dinner. I let some people go from my past, that should have been let go months go.  I'm somewhat relieved and glad I did it. I've been somewhat down, but i know my decision was for the best. I caught a terrible cold and have been dealing with it since Wednesday. On a lighter note, my grandmother was released from the hospital Sunday, and my family and I are celebrating my first cousin's birthday.  She's having a suprise birthday party at a lounge and I'm so excited. Turning 32 seems so far away being that I'm only 22. Well guess I'll enjoy my youth while I have it.

A Sleepless Night

It's 4 AM and every piece of skin on my body is itching. I got up to take a Zyrtec and oil myself down because this Eczema is no joke.  My skin was never a huge problem until I got pregnant then after its just been turmoil. Night after night I scratch my arms and back until it puts me to sleep. Scratching has become a nightly ritual because it takes me away from whatever I have gone through on that day's journey.While it may not be helping my situation physically, it definantely relieves it mentally. I've been shunned upon many times because of my skin, and I can't wait until it's all cleared up.
Now I cant seem to get myself back to sleep because I'm thinking about my future. I'm so ready to become this exciting elementary teacher; yet, it seems so far away until I can make it there. I'm trying so hard and I will no longer let what's going on around me to affect me reaching my goal. Receiveing a bachelors degree would make me the first of my siblings to graduate college.  I'm so ready to make my parents and my daughter proud.

Parenthood

Yet another day has passed and single parenthood is continued.Who would've thought being a full time mother and student was a hard job. It's quite frustrating at times, but it has to be done. A few moments ago, I quietly stepped outside as a high shrill left my mouth because the little girl I love so dearly continues to disobey. Disobedience and disrespect was not allowed in my family growing up.  This is something she is now learning at her young and tender age.  I'm beginning to believe she's bored now and she's needs a more structured environment in the daytime. We only have a few more months and she will be in a classroom setting, which I'm very excited about. I know this is a learning proccess, but it get so overwhelming sometimes. There is one lesson that I do remember my parents teaching me. Patience is the key.