Staying Positive

This week has gone well.  I'm striving everday to continue to remain positive about every aspect of my life.  My daughter and I went and sat with my grandmother Tuesday and she's doing great besides fussing at me for not continuing my birth control pills; she's doing fine. The last meeting for the Praxis was today hopefully I will retain all these test anxiety skills for April 30, and pass the Reading and Math parts of Praxis I. Mid terms grades were good so I'm pleased. I'm focusing more on maintining there grades and improving in the class I made a C in. My oldest brother even came by and visited with me today while he put my daughter's shopping cart together.  Church is tomorrow at 10:30 so I'll be washing clothes the rest of the night. In a nutshell I'm a very happy camper this week!!
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Is It Love

Well my daughter's dad is continuing to insist that we will be together one day.  My heart is still with him, but I know my life is going in a different direction. I feel like there is no time to wait on someone who continues to be selfish and won't let go of the past. We do have a lot of history together and a child.  Yes we are both college students, but his long terms goals are not where I thnk they should be considering he has two children. The Scenario:  Him(Bee) and I dated three years before I got pregnant and seven months after impregnanting me, he get another woman (Jay) pregnant. I was informed seven months after the baby was here. Yes, I was suprised!!
Two years have passed since that happened Bee and Jay have broken up for about one year. She has moved on and just recently gotten married this past Saturday. I still believe he is still dealing with some emotions with her even after they have been broken up for a year now. Since my daughter's party is Saturday Bee insists on not coming to the party because Jay will be there. This young lady was a huge part of my daughter's life when they were dating and living together, so why not invite her to the party?
I'm still questioning my self everytime I see receive an "I Love You Natalie" text. Is he really worth it? Should you reconsider bringing him back into your life in that way? Is It Love?

Feeling Better

This week has been beyond stressful but today has been a very good day. Yesterday I went to the dermatologist and was given a cortisone shot. Dr. Haynie said I looked miserable. This week took a hell of a toll on my skin drying and cracking on my hands and face. I do notice my skin healing already but I'm hoping this steriod shot and oral medication does not cause any negative side effects. I went to a Praxis I workshop this morning also it went well. I'm preparing for the Reading and Math parts of the test. I'm registered to take it April 30 so i hope all goes well because that means I'm getting closer to my dreams. I didnt even realize how quickly this semester has gone by.

Getting Closer to My Dreams

Everyday I wake and realize I'm getting closer and closer to my career, even though May 2012 seems so far away. Walking across that stage twice with my college degree and with my alternative certification and   master's of education in curriculm and instruction. O HAPPY DAY!! That is going to be the happiest day of my life. Things will be so much better for my daughter and I. I can imagine myself walking into my second grade classroom and seeing bright and eager eyes ready to learn or working with the gifted students and watching them excel. I want my students to go home telling their parents all they know about that day's classroom experience. I'm also excited about coming home and helping my daughter with her homework at the kitchen table.  Her being active at school with spelling bees, girl scouts, cheerleading or dance. She and I taking trips of our own across the United States. Of course I'm looking forward to being married and more children, but I believe that will all come in due time.